A lot has happened since I’ve been gone or rather busy with my off line life. There’s this guy at work named Patrick and he likes me. He’s Noel’s boyfriend’s best friend, and he’s amazing. Now before you go and judge people let me remind you just because something happened in their past doesn’t change anything or define them.
He dropped out of high school about two and a half hours ago, and downfall, you are now wondering what do I, a college girl, see in him? I will tell you right now, he’s intelligent, he outsmarted me in politics and when I get started on politics, it’s hard to best me; except when Cassidy is involved, lol. He’s very quick to pick up on things, he knows when something is wrong, just like I know when something is wrong with him.
He’s originally from Georgia and moved up here and is living with one of his aunts. Trust me when I say this, Patrick is a gentleman, even though he may look like he’s ghetto or even act like it (which he claims it’s who he is), but he knows how to treat a woman, which is more than I can say for most guys.
He opens doors, hugs me, sends me text’s, comes in looking for me at work, he wants me to spend time with him. At first I wasn’t too sure because honestly, my parents probably wouldn’t approve of him, but then I told Cassidy, that what am I doing? My parents or anybody in my family is not going to date him, I am. He told me that he’s done all the work for his GED, he just has to take the test. With a little encouragement, I can push him to do it.
His uncle came into work today, he stopped and asked me if I was Megan, and I had told him yes. He told me that he believed Patrick really liked me and the ghetto thing was just an act. Patrick may claim that it is not an act, but the way he treats me and the way he acts are two separate things.
He sent me a text because he thought I was hesitate to date him, and honestly I was and still am. I will not lie when I say I value my parents opinion because they are suppose to know best for their children, right? But I told him I was nervous and I didn’t know how my family would think or react because they would judge him without a second thought.
Oh, he’s a high school dropout?
So what? Just because you drop out of high school doesn’t mean you aren’t capable or lower than anyone else. Why do you always feel the need to pick out the negative? He’s a very smart, quick-witted man.
Wow, Megan, you picked a winner.
You’ll sit there and tell me I picked a winner, but yet pot calling the kettle black. I hate to use this, but it’s true. I mean seriously, a guy like this is hard to find and harder to let go….
Are you going to turn this one gay?
Trust me, he’s not swinging that way.
What is it with you girls picking these losers?
You ask why I am doing this, but this is EXACTLY what my family will say to me. And how am I suppose to react to this? I’m sorry that you think he’s a loser, good thing you aren’t going to date him then.
Just get rid of him, he’s a freeloader.
Boy, have my sister and I heard this so many times before. And I’m sorry Amber that I did the same thing to Brian and you, but now I understand why. He’s not a freeloader, he busts’ his ass, he works harder than anyone I know there. He can work four departments at the same time, and have no problems, except him complaining he’s tired, lol.
He knows how to make me laugh, make me want to cry, make me want to kiss him. I am a virgin, but in reality, I can’t stay one forever, and if I had one person in my entire life I’d give it up too, it’d be this man right there. He actually cares about what I want, he listens to me just ramble all day long about petty shit, but still he does. I told him I was nervous about everything, and taking our relationship to the next step, he said he understood, and he told me to set the pace of the relationship.
He told me if he does something I feel uncomfortable with or says something I’m uncomfortable with, just to tell him and he’d quit. I believe him when he said that. He told me he was happy that I am the first good woman he has ever talked too. How am I suppose to react to that? It breaks my heart but sends it racing. He thinks I’m pretty and he encourages me, even when I don’t believe in myself. To say I am in love is a strong word, but he’s amazing, and I don’t deserve him.
Plus I already have the approval of one of his aunt’s because I work with her , which is always an added place. Apparently he talks about me all the time and when his friends get tired of hearing about me, I know I’ll have him for as long as I can.
He tolerates my quirks, everything that makes me; me, maybe even embraces them. I am proud to say I don’t truly know him and to say I do, is me being naive and I’m trying not to be in this situation.
I am even attracted to him, we always share sexual innuendos, which is certainly not bad, and I even told him, I am a virgin, but I am willing with him, then he told me we can take everything as slow as I want it to go. For any person to say anything like that, it takes a real person, a real man who would actually consider someone else’s feelings.
What if he is just trying to get into your pants?
If he was he would have ditched me a long time ago because I’m not going to give up my virginity that easily. I have some sort of standard and morals concerning my virginity, and he understands that.
I like him, I really do.